So, I was going to make my #18th post much longer, but the drugs won and I slept in the hospital. So I figured I’d finish this post right now.

Le sigh. I’m having a shit ton of problems at the current moment: one; i’m not enjoying being single any more. at all. whatsoever. two: my school work is failing, epically. i want to transfer but with the grades ive got at this current moment NFW. three; i feel down all the time, and i don’t know why.

I seem to be an in infinite void of singledom. Singledom being classified as that time in a girl’s life where you want to be in a relationship, but no guy that comes a long to call satisfies what you want. Or there is one guy you really like, but he doesn’t come to call. Or no guy comes to call at all. Which do you think I’m going through?

I guess I’m in the categories of all three. I see to still be swimming in the fish pond of texting a plethora of gentleman. I feel as though I’m slowly  receeding (fuck it, she’s coming back like a speeding train) into Summer Luciana. I don’t want to do that. So I need to focus on my goals. Which bring me back to my other two problems.

I need to lay the guys aside for awhile. Will it give me the urge to smack every happy couple I see? Most definitely. But, I need to “do me.” I know that’s the cliche version that everyone uses, but it’s true! I can’t be going after guys any more, I can’t lose my education, and my neck wont snap every time my phone lights up thinking its a text (… like it just did.)

I’ve never like setting goals. But I have to do it.And follow through on it.

1. Go to EVERY class. Even if it means getting up at god awful hours.

2. Take all my assignments seriously and get all my homework done.

3.  Ask for help when I need it

4. Hash marks on the arm.

5. To not be boy crazy. Or text crazy.

These goals are going to be hard, but I have to do it. I will not ruin my college career.

“Oh yeah, that’s right, I’m doing me.” - Drake: Over